Unrequited & Unwarranted

“You are my sun, moon, and stars.

You are the center of my universe, the beginning and end of my everything.

You are morning and night, daylight and darkness.

You are everything and nothing - infinite possibilities and finite destinations.

You are  the plot of my novel, but I am only a chapter in your story.”

Found it in my ask box this morning. Not sure how long it’s been lingering there, but I didn’t want to delete it.

Are we really back here? After months of progress we’re back to small disappointments and tragic breakdowns…

I thought we worked so hard, so diligently, never to come back here.

I might continue posting old letters … because I wrote so many. I’ll just post them one by one, though I can’t guarantee that they’ll be in chronological order… but it’ll be nice for them to see the light of day.

I think having this tumblr gave me the courage to tell her what I needed to.

So I’ll… extend that to everyone else. Leave little comments in my ask box, e-mail me. Stay anonymous if you want to.

I’ll post them up here. Think of me like the post-secret of unrequited love.

And I promise that you’ll feel so much better. Talking about your issues really is a form of catharsis. 

We agreed that nothing is going to change.

And we aren’t going to feel awkward.

We’re going to find your soul mate.

And when you do find him, I’ll be happy… because you’ll be happy.

And that’s what counts.

Today I am going to write you a letter and I’m going to explain just how I feel and why.

Today I am not going to apologize for how I feel and I am not going to worry about you feeling awkward.

Today I am through, I have accepted the fact that this is either a beautiful beginning or a tragic end.

Wish me luck.

I told you….

Everything….

It always makes my day when somebody messages me, whether they’re thanking me or asking questions or just being dick-ish - it doesn’t matter. My day is substantially made when I learn that someone has decided to take a moment to talk to me. 

I am really glad that I started this blog.

I’m coming to visit you.

Barring how creepy that sounds, you have no idea how excited I am. I’m hoping seeing you will change things somehow.

I also learned that a person’s pupils dilate if they’re conversation with someone they’re attracted to. I really hope you don’t know that, otherwise I am seriously fucked (pardon the french).